I have to mention something that probably isn’t going to
sound too powerful on paper, but that was beyond powerful to actually spiritual
when it happened. We drove through the pines. That was the exact moment that I
knew this is where I belong. It had the feel of a sign from god. For the past
several years- 5 maybe- I have had an almost visceral reaction to the smell of
pine trees. Not fake pine, or air fresheners…just the real thing. This goes
beyond loving the smell. It is as if it reaches down and stirs something in my
soul that I can’t quite place. When the scent reaches me, I stop what I am
doing and just experience it. It is like a brief feeling of ecstasy. I have
never been able to figure out why this is. It hasn’t always been that way, and
I have never had an experience, to my knowledge, that has made such a positive
impact that it could have created this association. Regardless, it happens.
Every time, over the past 5 or so years.
As we drove up the mountain to Dadeldhura, we drove through a stand of
pine and it hit me again, but this time it brought an instant lump to my throat
and tears to my eyes. It was as if that was god’s way of telling me I finally
found it- the place he’s called me to. Here, halfway around the world from my
“home”, I am experiencing that visceral, spiritual reaction and it has the
earmark of a word from god. It is both comforting and exhilarating. It feels
like with each breath, as I breathe in that scent, the god shaped hole in me is
filled just a tiny bit and I am closer to completion.
See? I told you it would be lost in translation. You’ll just
have to believe me. When god speaks to me, no matter how random the delivery of
that message, I listen.
Karin, I TOTALLY know what you are talking about! Not that I get it while breathing pine needles... they actually make me break out in hives... but that spiritual reaction to God's presence... So hard to explain to others who have not experienced it but unmistakable love envelops your soul. Have you ever tried to imagine what it will be like when you are looking into His face? unimaginable!
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